Life Finds a Way

"You're implying that a group composed entirely of female animals will...breed?"

"No, I'm simply saying that life...uh...finds a way."

Name that movie...
If you guessed Jurassic Park, you'd be correct. Dr. Ian Malcolm makes that comment as he is touring the inner workings of the lab inside the park. As the movie unfolds, we find out that he is correct in his theory. The scientists at Jurassic Park fill in the missing dinosaur DNA with frog DNA; unfortunately it is a species of frog that can change their sex if need be.

While camping this summer, a campsite host asked me if I had heard of the new breed of bear. He informed me that Polar Bears and Grizzly Bears were mating. In my head it made sense, I've heard the concern of the ice caps melting, which would force Polar Bears further and further south...and maybe running into a Grizzly..? It got me thinking, what if in a few hundred years, there will only be cross breeds of Polar Bears? I looked into it when I got home and sure enough it is rare, but these hybrids do exist in both captivity and the wild. It seems to me that these bears are making due with what's in front of them, even if it is normally unnatural for bears to mate outside of their species. The unofficial name of this bear is "Pizzly" if the father is a Polar Bear and "Grolar" if the father is a Grizzly. (wikipediea)

Another example of life finding its way are fire climax pines. These are types of pine trees like the Monterey Pine and the Pond Pine, that actually depend on forest fires to reproduce. Their seeds are stuck inside the cones for years until a forest fire kills the parent tree and the heat of the fire opens the cones, releasing the seeds. What an amazing adaptation. Mother Earth always knows how to adjust to the obstacles she is faced with everyday!

Our mountains suffered a forest fire a couple of summers ago. I had close friends who had to evacuate their homes. The fear of having to leave got to me a little bit, but we were lucky and only saw the smoke on our horizon. I am glad to say that some of the homes in Running Springs have been rebuilt. Unfortunately wild fires are something that you live with and have to expect when you are living in the forest. But now it is great to see the forest rebuilding itself, like it always has.

During these tough economic times, I am looking to life and nature as my guide..it will find its way, adapt, and rebuild itself.

Taken off of 3N16 in the San Bernardino National Forest. Signs of regrowth amongst a burnt forest!

Changing of Seasons

I took this picture about a week before I got married. It was still pretty warm and felt like summer, but here was a vibrant red leaf signaling the coming of another changing season. Time for football and back to school jitters, hoodies and pumpkin spice lattes. The same goes for me; I still feel the same, but there's a wedding band on my left hand symbolizing the big change that is going to be evolving in my future days. Time for true patience, true kindness, and true selflessness.

Only God knows what the change in seasons will bring; will this be a heavy winter with endless snowfall? Will both my husband and I have our health and prosperity for the years to come? This I do know: I've got one hell of a snow shovel!

The Wise Fairy

I don't like to put stickers on my car. I don't have one of those, "He bought it, I got it" licence plate frames either. I absolutely don't have any beanie babies on my dashboard. The only thing that really personalizes my car is the big dent in the back and my little smart-fairy-Medusa toy. I received this lovely little fairy(I think that's what she is) from a student. Now, this wasn't one of my permanent students from when I had a full time teaching position. I was only this child's substitute teacher for that day only. We had known each other from morning recess to lunch recess, when she offered me this toy. She came back from lunch and said, "I want you to have this," shoved it into my hand, put her arms around my waist (yes, my waist, she was only in second grade, so she was shorter than me), and gave me a squeeze. I asked her if she was sure, as it was obviously brand new; it still had the wrapper and it still smelled of McDonald's french fries. She put her hands behind her back, nodded and swayed her shoulders back and forth a few times. I was so moved that this child so freely gave her brand new toy to an almost complete stranger. That is why I've kept this little fairy in my car for over four years now, she reminds me to be a selfless giver. That is probably the best thing I've learned from kids; they so freely give their hearts and love to anybody! They don't think about it, they just feel it and act on it. I leave everyone with a challenge: give something today without expecting anything in return (not even a thank you!) for that is the true art of giving.

Simple Acts of Kindness

On the way home from Iowa a couple of weeks ago, I got the window seat on the plane. I sat next to a friendly lady who joked as I had to squeeze by her. She seemed to be a little nervous; she kept fidgeting with her book rather than reading it. I decided to make my usual airplane small talk: So...are you coming or going? She was going, this was going to be her first trip to California. How exciting!! Where exactly will you be staying? She was going to San Diego to see her son in the hospital. Not your usual first trip to the Golden State. It turns out she got an emergency phone call from her son the night before. He was injured while fighting in Iraq. She was just a bundle of nerves because the Army wouldn't disclose any specifc information over the phone. The only thing she was going on was that she had heard her son's voice and was on a plane at 8am the following morning. So there she sat, in between two strangers, not knowing the extent of her youngest (she has five!) child's injuries, is thousands of miles away from him, and is helpless to do anything for him in this moment. Picking up on her anxiety, the man in the aisle seat quickly started talking to her about her kids, her husband, her job, redecorating homes, traveling, his wife, his kids, his job..he kept her mind distracted for about an hour and half. I kept having the feeling I should jump in the conversation to help the time ease by for her, but I am in such a different phase of my life, I couldn't relate. I was also sitting there, feeling helpless, wanting to take some of this woman's anxiety away, but with no way to do it. I just sat in silence, listening about her and the aisle man's lives, just being present. Towards the end of the flight I remembered I had Thank You cards in my carry on (left over from my bridal shower). I have never been so thankful that I had actual cards to write a random person a thank you note. I wrote to her son, Micheal Russell, that I was thankful that he had put himself out there on the line for us, I thanked him for doing something so much bigger than his own life. When the plane had finally taxied to the Jetway and the captain had turned off the Fasten Your Seat Belt signs, I handed her the card and asked if she would give it to her son. Before I knew it, she kissed me and was holding me in a super tight embrace. She thanked the man on the other side of her for keeping her talking the entire flight. She had tears welled up in her eyes and was doing some deep breathing because she didn't want to lose it. I told her to have a safe drive and that I would pray for her family. She squeezed my hand and we went our separate ways.

Thirty...

Shortly after I turned 18, I got a tattoo. I had wanted one since I was about 15, so I had a few ideas about what to permanently decorate my body with. The one that I loved the most I created after a guided imagery exercise with Jaime's mom, Tammy. One of the gifts I had visualized receiving was a white dove, which represented purity. I knew I wanted some type of plant involved, but I wasn't sure what. My Aunt Heidi visited shortly after the dove idea and that's when I noticed that she had an ivy band tattooed around her ankle. I really liked the way it looked, but there was no meaning behind it for me. When my Grandpa Don passed away when I was 17, I got my meaning. Ivy was placed on his coffin by some of the gentlemen in the Elk's Club to symbolize brotherhood. I kind of made the brotherhood morph into "family". Now I had my design that totally represented who I was at the time. (A few years later the tattoo also took on the meaning of Purity and Poison, my own version of Yin and Yang: The Balance of Life).

My Grandpa Charlie passed away a few months after I had gotten my ink and my family and I were back in Iowa for the funeral. I remember when my Aunt Jacquie saw it, she told me, "When you turn 30 you're going to wonder 'Why in the world did I do that?'" I recall thinking, Even if I regret getting it, I'll always remember what it meant to me at the time and how I was young and impulsive and didn't care who I would be in 15 years...Her words have stuck with me ever since. Each birthday that has passed I have kind of evaluated if I still liked my tattoo....the answer is yes, it still represents me and what I believe. It still represents that young and hopeful girl. (Even if it is now considered a 'tramp stamp'!!)

Thinking Outside the Bowl

I'm a direction follower. I like to follow them exactly. This has always been something that has done me a great deal of good through grade school, and even high school. I didn't notice how it hindered me until I got into college and out into the real world. In college we were encouraged to think outside of the box and often given projects and assignments without too much direction or guidelines. This drove me crazy! I didn't have enough comfort with my own random ideas to just try the thoughts that came to mind. A few weeks ago I received a bag of Amish friendship bread and when it came time to mix it, the directions specifically said to use a non metal bowl. I didn't have a non metal bowl that was big enough. I'm on a tight budget and really didn't want to go buy one. Luckily my part time neighbor was in town and I was sure she had one that I could borrow. She didn't, but she came out of her cabin with a rectangular tupperware thingy. I politely told her no thanks, that it wasn't big enough. So here's my a-ha moment...........I had a big rectangular tuperware thingy that would be perfect! I had to laugh at myself, I just couldn't think of it before. I think my horizons are broadening.

Get your hands dirty!

I can't remember the last time my hands were totally dirty...to me dirty hands (skinned knees, dislocated shoulders) means you're using them, experiencing life, trying new things. So last week I learned how to set up a climbing wall and teach the basics about climbing and safety to my 8th grade rascals and my hands were filthty! I was so proud. (Also proud of my shoulder pain from falling off a rail and the scar on my shin from trying a frontside boardslide while riding this winter.)

Dusting off a bottle of wine

My brother, Tony took the prize for the coolest Christmas gift a few years ago. He got a case of Palamino Ridge Merlot with customized labels put on each bottle of the whole family (from a Winter trip to Tahoe), along with a moving saying, "Through the Years and Varying Paths: An Endeavor of Enriched Fulfillment". It was a pretty awesome idea; you know, one of those that you wish you'd thought of yourself. I've always had the tenancy to save special things like this bottle of wine, sometimes for too long. In middle school, one of my best friends Michelle, gave me two bottles of Bath and Body Works lotion. I'd never had anything like them before, so I used them sparingly. It wasn't until my second year of college that I had to throw them out because they were all watery and nasty. Knowing this about myself and knowing what I know about wine storage (wine should be kept at constant 55 degrees Fahrenheit to stay good and age properly), I feared that the Hartman wine may have already suffered a doomed fate. After all, the wine had been from Iowa to MoVal to Phoenix to Big Bear...not much consistency in temperature during its travels. I wanted to open and drink the bottle before the weather started to warm up, but I felt I needed some special occasion that had to do with my family to enjoy the yummy red stuff. One evening I decided to spend some quality time with my soon to be maiden name. Actually, I celebrated my Hartmanness for the next three evenings(there may have been an afternoon in there..). I leave you with this last challenge: to enjoy the beauty of this moment; to realize there is no better time that right now. So go have a glass of wine (coffee/tea/seltzer water/apple juice) to celebrate!

Design Artgum Art Eraser/Cleaner

Tarl and I (mostly I) decided to bump our wedding date up from June 2010 to September 2009. I had already filled out the calendar in my "Bride's Mini 411" to accommodate my 2010 date. I had to erase about fourteen months of dates!! My No. 2 eraser was having a hard time with the task, so I went to look for another(and bigger) eraser..Remember those giant pink ones you'd get in first grade? To my surprise, I couldn't find one anywhere! This was a little bizarre to me (especially since I was an elementary teacher); I always had one on hand somewhere. So the question that popped into my mind was: At what point do we stop having a big eraser to erase all of those mistakes as we learn? It seems like it's normal to make those simple or perhaps gargantuan mistakes when you're in school: learning algebra or writing an essay on Jane Austen..But what about when you're out there in the real world? If only it were that easy to just erase your simple (or perhaps) gargantuan mistakes: that speeding ticket or a bad relationship. Wouldn't it be nice to just erase them, learn from them, and move on? I've got a bad habit of letting the big mistakes haunt me for awhile...so I went out and bought a new, big eraser.